I am a Weak Man

I am a weak man.

Throughout most of my life, I felt that my life was out of my control. I felt that life threw many things at me that I couldn’t handle. I was scared, I was shy, I was fearful of many things. I watched my heroes and other people online achieving things that I could only daydream of. They had what they wanted and they were happy, and I kept asking myself how can I get here. I realized that it was my mentality and my mental health. My mental health was garbage and honestly sometimes it still is. Many of the days I look happy and it looks like I am achieving things, but I don’t feel great. I come home empty, unsure if I have done anything productive, and wondering when will my suffering end even though I have everything I could possibly want. I realized that my desires were not in the tangible but the intangible. I realized that I was depriving myself of the love and effort that I truly deserved and looked outside towards other people. This was very unfair towards other people. I was asking them to fill up a void that was in me, without trying myself. This worked sometime but I realized how draining I was to other people and this behavior invited toxic and unfulfilling relationships. I am now putting in more effort into myself and striving to become a better man. I realized that I have been comfortable for a very long time thanks to the countless sacrifices made by my parents. I am now older and realize that I need to take my life into my own hands and step up to achieve the dreams my younger self had. Throughout these last couple of months I have been improving my mental health, by slowly removing bad habits and implementing good ones. I am more social, more driven, and more fulfilled and happy. However I have so much more to grow and thus have written this post in the hopes that you will help keep me accountable on my journey to become better and put myself out there.

There are 3 things that I want to be held accountable for:

Workout 4 times a week

Read an hour a day

Have a conversation with a stranger once per day

These are the goals I have chosen and will strive hard to achieve them. If you want to help keep me accountable, shoot me a text or remind me in person whenever we meet. I will respond honestly and thank you greatly as I appreciate all the help. I will then report my results in 4 weeks (9/14/22) to see how much this has changed my life. Thank you so much for reading, I appreciate every single one of you. Lets grow together 🙂