Progress, Practice, People
Life has been great over this last week, mainly due to 3 realizations
Progress
I don’t like chilling and relaxing as much as I did before. Over the last week I have been productive every single day or hanging out with friends, which is a win win to me. I have been super excited to build and to make progress towards the goals that I have set. Getting more responsibility at the clinic has been a blessing because I get less free time. Because I have less free time I have been using my time in a more productive manner. Having too much freedom for me is not healthy and I need external structure. I was pondering if I ever wanted to be location independent and I do not. I don’t care to live in other places, but I would love to visit them. I think two weeks in another location is good enough time as I am a homebody and love my space. I like having my work and my personal space physically separate, which is why dentistry is perfect. I also have been pushing myself at the gym to reach higher numbers and have started to track my workouts. This way I can push a little harder every time I go to the gym.
Practice
I think last week I finally had the realization that I can do dentistry for the rest of my life and I think its pretty fun. I think I am finally getting used to it more and more every single day I come into the clinic. Whenever I help someone with a treatment I feel hella good inside. I am actually getting fulfilled by my work as I feel that I am adding value to the world. Many patients come in poor condition and it feels good to be involved in the process of helping them. I am good at taking X-rays and my assisting skills are improving. I still have to a lot to go but a part of me actually wants to learn it and get better, which is something I could not have said in the past. I cannot wait until I actually become a Dentist and I can have even more impact.
People
I need to see people or be around people every single day. I think that is why I enjoy being in the clinic as I get a social dose whenever I come in. I also like visiting the coffee shop next door, and saying Hi to the staff and having that small social interaction. They also give me a discount because I work in the same plaza and they have my orders memorized, they goated fsho. I realized that being social and learning how to better conduct myself in social situations is the way to go. However I still need large amounts of alone time where I can just sit and do whatever I want. I think I am getting better at balancing this and learning where my boundaries are. I realized that I can also just be who I want and don’t have to react to the people in a way to make them happy. I am trying to be honest in my reactions and letting people deal with the way that I actually am. Also I have been going to cafes and doing work and it just feels better than staying at home. I don’t talk to any of these people, but just having people around makes doing work feel a lot better.
Overall I feel that the quality of my life is improving and I realized that I need to keep up what I did over the last week. Every single day I need to focus on how to make progress towards my goals. Journaling on paper has been great to help me figure out my thoughts and plans going forward. Additionally I have not slept in past 10 am since coming back from Vietnam, mainly because I couldn’t but now it is because I don’t want to. Waking up at 9 to 10 am and getting sunlight feels amazing. I also have been sleeping between 11:30 pm and 12 am, which is crazy to me as before Vietnam I was sleeping on average at 2 am. I think I have been more satisfied with my days as I know that I am using my time in a more fulfilling manner. I know that life has many challenges on the way but today I feel good and I am just going to be happy about that. Focusing on futures that exists is a waste of time, ask yourself what can you do today? We only have today, and that mindset shift has allowed me to use my time more productively and in a way that kept me satisfied.
Thanks for reading, let’s grow together :)